August Feelings

It is August again and with it comes the smell of "New Air", or just the felling of cooler days.

August tends to be a very nice month for me as I like to take more walks and do more cleaning outside and the feeling that there is something different on the horizon feels nice.

August to me is the month of change, more so than any other month in the year or anything, I wish that the feeling I get from this month could last the whole year. but it never does, and it lasts from the beginning of the August to the middle of September, when we start to move to fall, which never really feels or smells as good as August here in California, which I guess might sound weird coming from someone who lived in California their whole life.

August is a month that I feel something very nice, not too hot, cool air, and light winds to help clear the skies for a wonderful feeling inside.

Mood: Chipper
Music: Erik Satie - Gymnopedie No. 1 (8-Bit Style)
Phrase of the day: "Who Dares,Wins" The Motto of the British Special Air Service

Another Walk with more Memories.

I took another walk to find myself, it was a six hour walk really. I was thinking about my friends again, and I was writing about my book again (yes the one I given up on)  listening to the 50th ep of Final Fantasy Union at the park, after it got dark, I looked at the moon and watched it for what seem like forever. I have this habit of trying to grasp it in my hand, as if it will give me wish, funny as I also saw shooting star and may a wish on it.

Today it was warm and it was slightly windy (very slight) it remind of the time that I would go north to see my family, it was a calming memory really.

As the days go by, I feel my fear and loneliness growing. I think the reasons I like walking is to relive past, it's like walking to the past to find path again. Thing about memories is that no matter how much you try, you lose them, it's a sad feeling as I want to try and remember the past, to honor my life, to keep it my heart as it will help to affirm I am alive.

Mood: Confused
Music: Final Fantasy Type-0 - ZERO / BUMP OF CHICKEN
Phrase of the day: "Don't Stop, Carry On!" - Victory Gundam

Dollow Rlance

Walking and the feelings that I have

Again a long time since I last posted

I love to take walks for many reasons, I always see it as a way to run away from my problems that could never be solved very easily. Walk across the street and pass house that stand, and I as I move to the park, I will go the baseball benches and sit for a little while, then I walk again and wonder around. I always look at the sky too, that's something everyone does I know, but when I look to it would sometimes put my hand towards it as if I was trying to reach something there, to grab it, to take it with me, but I never to get it, when the moon is out in the day I would enclosed my hand around it too, but I would not be able to get that as well. I wish I could run away forever and enjoy the wind against my face. I love to walk, and the path is always in front of me, and will try reach the end.

Mood: Hopeful but sad
Music: Spiral: Suiri no Kizuna
Phrase of the day: "...As long as you never give up; there will as be hope, so I'm sure fate can be changed"
Madoka Narumi from Spiral: The Bond of Reasoning

"I'm sure it can Madoka , I'm sure it can."