Some times things are just not what you want

 Well that is it. Some days you wonder, if the world you are living in is worth it, because it always wants to be as awful as it can be. This is not about giving up but about trying to find hope where if things are going to get better, it will not be within your lifetime, you are just the stepping stone to the next phase.

This last year, Twitter just reached the point, where I can no longer pretend that I can be there. In the last year I mostly used it for following artist but now I cannot feel comfortable doing that while being on the platform. I locked it down, made it so that anyone who follows me can see it, but no one else, a bit like an archive. I have always had an issue mass deleting something, that has been around for so long, but even now I think I should delete it.

I once was trying to bring my blog back, but when I did that the first time, after I made that post back in 2023, I did not continue it because I feel my heart was not in it and frankly what would I talk about? I am not so vain, to think that my ideas, are so important, that I need to write them out. But then I did that for years on Twitter just in a shorter form. So bring my blog back again, for real this time, will be something I will follow up on. I know that do not need to post, all the time, like I did on Twitter but every so often in a longer form and with more detailed thoughts. 

As of right now, I guess I would talk more about my readings about the Korean War, which I have spent almost a whole year doing, mostly video panels, some papers and the novel "The Frozen Hours" by Jeff Shaara based on the events of the Battle of Chosin Reservoir, learning about Gen. O.P. Smith, and just what the Marines went through. It's a great drama to read.

As of now that is all I have to say and will finish with this. Try to be nice and find hope but know that it is okay to feel sad and if you love someone, tell them that you are in love with them.

Sincerely,

Dollow Rlance.

Revival of a Blog

Its been a really long time since I made a post of this blog, but here I am to post something.

So the question of why have I returned to this blog is complicated, but in the interest of keeping it simple, I just wanted to make sure I had a personal space, in case something happened to my Twitter, which is my main place of interacting or blogging. I highly doubt I would leave Twitter, unless something really bad came about, because of that freakshow known as Elon Musk, in which case I would need somewhere to post my thoughts. One might wonder, why Blogspot? Why not some other SMS (Social Media Site) like Facebook, Instagram or something like that? Well I have profiles on those sites too, but they have very particular reasons for existing and none are for posting my thoughts really. Instagram is most for pictures, so I am not always in the mood to post pictures, Facebook is there for business and things of that nature, so it just seemed like the right time to bring back my blog, which even though I have lightly maintain the blog, I haven't really done anything of note for it since 2018. 

Yugioh and my stories in competitive tournaments.

I am getting that feeling again like I did in 2006 and again in 2008 and 2009; where I am asking myself if I still like playing Yugioh. Tonight, was an awful night, I know that it is me and not my deck.

Anime Conventions

I will be up front on convention for anime and comic books, I really don't like going to conventions really all that much. It's not really one of those cases of the fans are very annoying, it is just huge pain in the butt. I remember when I went to Anime Expo 2009, it was very fun but the one thing that always remember (Besides the cosplayers) is the pain that was all across my legs, arms and neck, and I get that same pain every year, one time this past year I got very sick because of being so tired and the pain put me out of commission for two days.

Anime conventions can be fun, but never like going to more than one than a year, it's annoying to me and as much as I like anime, my fandom only goes so far and really one is really all I need. I am not a cosplayer, I am not a voice actor, I am not even a panel host or anything, I am just someone who likes going to Anime Expo for one day and that is it.

August Feelings

It is August again and with it comes the smell of "New Air", or just the felling of cooler days.

August tends to be a very nice month for me as I like to take more walks and do more cleaning outside and the feeling that there is something different on the horizon feels nice.

August to me is the month of change, more so than any other month in the year or anything, I wish that the feeling I get from this month could last the whole year. but it never does, and it lasts from the beginning of the August to the middle of September, when we start to move to fall, which never really feels or smells as good as August here in California, which I guess might sound weird coming from someone who lived in California their whole life.

August is a month that I feel something very nice, not too hot, cool air, and light winds to help clear the skies for a wonderful feeling inside.

Mood: Chipper
Music: Erik Satie - Gymnopedie No. 1 (8-Bit Style)
Phrase of the day: "Who Dares,Wins" The Motto of the British Special Air Service